WARNING: This Blog may cause Nausea, Vomiting, Growth of hair all over the body, Growth of a Penis in Females, Growth of a Vagina in Males, Spontaneous Pregnancy, Excessive Flatus, Hair Loss on the Head, Excessive Hunger for Inanimate Objects, Need to talk to a Cell phone with no one on the other End, The craving of Blue Waffles, and Death.
So... I am officially no longer a teenager. All my years of immaturity and not knowing what they heck I was doing or where I was going are all gone...
NOT! hahaha!
I kind of wish it had been my 21st birthday this year instead of just my 20th. 20 just seems kinda depressing. Like, I'm no longer a teenager, so my carefree days of being a "kid" are over. Haha... not really though, but I mean, figuratively. At least with 21 you get a new responsibility that seems like a big deal kinda, but still not really. I think I have just hit the point of Birthdays where they are just kinda like "Whew... thank goodness I made it!" instead of "Heck yeah let's party!". Mom says I'm an old soul for thinking like that, but I am reminded of the handful of people I knew that didn't even make it to see what it feels like to turn 20, so I really feel thankful to be here. I have a big large amazing bright cool sometime sad but mostly good cause I will make it that way and I have God with me every step of the way future ahead of me. Even if I don't have a big future ahead of me, and die at a younger age (I hope I don't!), I have lived an amazing life and wouldn't ever change a thing. I so greatly look forward to Heaven too. Ahh... topic for another blog. :P
So now, I will rant and celebrate some of the happenings-of-lately that I feel like ranting or celebrating just cause I want to write a blog. :)
Rant #1: My stinking Microbiology teacher lectures are impossible. She starts out with like the super high volume at the beginning of each sentence, and by the end of the sentence you can't hear a word she's saying. Then, she goes right back up for the next sentence and scares the poop out of everyone in the class. AND she talked like 5,000 mph. My hand was in so much pain trying to keep up with what I could keep up with, and now looking back at my notes they're so scattered I can't even understand them. BUH!
Celebration #1: I got to go to a movie with Kadie and Haley the other night, and it was the first time I had seen Haley and really talked to her since probably June. For those who may not know, Haley was my best friend from the time we were 11 till we went off to college. Our friendship has overcome a lot over the years, and I feel blessed that every time we do manage to find time to hang out it's like we never stopped. I think that as you grow older, that's what friends have to become... someone who isn't there all the time, but still is there anytime you need them. Me and Kee and Hay had an awesome time catching up, and I loved getting to kinda celebrate my Birthday with them.
Rant #2: Nursing School BLOWS. :)
Celebration #2: I am getting closer to my amount of $$ I need for my Tattoo fund. Mom, Dad, Nana, and Bon Bon all forbid me to use the money that I got for my Birthday on a tattoo, but Memaw told me that the money she gave me would be perfect for a tattoo and if she were younger she'd "have them all over her body". She's awesome! :) So... I have my plan, and about half my money. Exciting!
Rant #3: Memaw was put into the Pigeon River Nursing home on Friday. I didn't find out until Sunday around lunch time. That made me super mad... not only that Memaw was put into the Nursing home but also that no one had told me. I know that I wasn't told for the sake of sparing me since they all knew it'd upset me, but still. Not long ago, my Dad and 2 Aunts had talked about taking Memaw's car keys away because she wasn't really in a good state to drive. While my Dad and 1 Aunt said for sure they needed to take them, my Aunt with Memaw's POA said that they should let her keep her keys because that would "be the easiest way to get her into a hospital bed and into a nursing home". I cannot tell you how mad that made me! I really can't imagine saying that about anyone, MUCH LESS my own Mother. My Dad really hasn't seemed right since... I guess it really tore him up deep down, and it's one of those things that it's like, What could he do? In the end, he doesn't have the power. So... Memaw is in the Nursing Home. Although I'm happy that she's there and doesn't have to be scared anymore, I still feel like it ended up being a way to get her out of my Aunts way. I don't want to ever wish bad on anyone, but I wonder how she'd feel if in a couple of years my cousin just "got her out of the way" by putting her in a Nursing home? It's just one of those things that you have to learn how to deal with, cause there isn't anything I can do about it.
Rant #4: Memaw doesn't have a phone at this Nursing Home, and that was the best way I could keep in touch with her and let her know that I still think about and love her. Sucks.
Rant #5: My Aunt took Memaw's keys and told her they were lost, left that issue with Dad, and conveniently left to stay with my cousin for a week. Ironically, my other Aunt is gone for a week too. Some family support there. I'm sure glad that there shouldn't be a time in my life when I would have to depend on them, cause they pretty much end up sucking at being a supportive family.
Celebration #3: I have rediscovered a love for music and dancing around like a lunatic. I've been struggling here lately with being happy, which is weird for me, and besides praying and giving it all over to God, I've been cranking up fun dance music and dancing around my dorm whenever Roomie isn't in here.
Rant #6: I really wish I didn't have such a big heart about things. I know I've talked about this in other blogs, but it's a stinking pain. I just want everyone to be happy... and that's just too impossible. And in times where the people who mean the most to me in the world are struggling and upset, it wears on me. I sometimes wonder if I'm depressed or close to it, but then I am reminded of what an awesome God I serve and how lucky I am to have the life I do, and I can't be depressed anymore.
Celebration #4: Someone is playing a lovely flute solo of "When the Saints come Marching In" somewhere in the dorm or outside. It's rather soothing actually. Nice job to whoever you are! :)
Celebration #5: Just when I feel like I couldn't hate this school more, I begin to love it all over again. Random reasons usually, but no matter how much I want to kick myself for coming to such an expensive school, I can't because I am so thankful that I have gotten the opportunity to spend the time here that I have.
Celebration #6: Although my Mondays suck with all of my classes and stuff, I had a pretty darn amazing Birthday. I had a whole lot of people tell me Happy Birthday on Facebook and otherwise, and I feel lucky that that many people thought of me yesterday. Even amongst all the classes that SUCKED, I got a smile every time I logged on Facebook. I am one blessed girl. :)
-> Well... that about wraps it up for now I reckon. :) Hopefully you experienced none of the symptoms listed above, and will continue to read any random blogs that I may post in the future. :D
Love you all. :)
