Cursed?

I just finished reading a book called Impossible where a curse was put on a line of women in this family where they would get pregnant at age 18, have their baby, and then go crazy- all because of a woman in their family who was originally cursed by a man who wanted to marry her but she refused. Did you get that? Haha

I wonder sometimes if I have some kind of relationship curse on me? Haha It seems that every relationship I have had has ended in some crazy/stupid/bad manner. I honestly can't think of one relationship that I've had that I would consider an overall good relationship that came to a good end. I mean, I don't think I'm gonna have to solve some ridiculous 3 tasks to break my curse or anything, but I really do wonder why all my relationships have ended oddly? I wonder if God is using them for some reason, or making me wait for some reason? I mean, I know he's making me wait for the right guy, but I wonder why? Haha I don't know.

I figure God's working on me a good man who will treat me like I think I deserve to be treated and who will love me just the way I am. I pray for him, whoever he is, and I hope that maybe he prays for me too. I get so ready to meet him, but I know that's not how God works... I gotta be a patient child and wait for whenever he knows I'm truly ready.

I may work on a P.O. Box again... whether or not I would actually give it to my future husband, I don't know, but it may be the workings of a good book! Haha (For anyone who doesn't know, a P.O. Box is kind of like a "Hope Chest" but it's letters that you write to your future spouse just saying anything you wanna say I reckon... I got it out of some books that I've read from the Christy Miller series which is a Christian series about a teenage girl and the course of her young adult life.)

Anyways, I'm done with my little mini rant about my bad relationships. Haha

OH! And for my edit, I have to go change my bucket list. Haha #8 may not be happening this summer as I had planned... :P