Revelation :)

So, I titled this blog Revelation because I believe that I have had one.

I dated a guy over the Summer, and the whole time I dated him, it all just felt pointless. I knew that he wasn't someone I wanted to be with for a long time, and I knew that I wasn't going to be happy with him unless I made myself. Well, who wants to do that? Haha But anyways, for some reason I drove the relationship on, knowing it was nothing. There was nothing there. I was just looking for something that I thought I was missing out on.

This is where God comes in. Haha! I have been praying for years that he just lead me to someone or lead someone to me that I will be happy with, and in love with, and marry, and yada yada yada. I have for so long felt like I was missing out because I wasn't dating. I have also many many times wondered how I wasn't dating, how I wasn't finding someone out there, when it seemed so many people were. I guess I kinda felt like the odd ball.

Well, all of the sudden this morning I woke up and I just had such a peace about it. I don't feel like I need to keep trying to find this person, or trying to get myself out there, or anything like that. I have this absolute trust in God and his ways, and I feel like now I could wait 40 years if that's what God wanted for me. A week ago, I would have freaked out at the thought that it would take Him more than 5 years to put that someone in my life.

I see so many people whose relationships consume their lives. The people I see aren't themselves anymore, they are such and such's girlfriend or such and such's boyfriend. Well, I don't want that. I have so much I value in my life that has nothing what so ever to do with a guy. I enjoy my family, my friends, my pets, etc. and I don't feel like I need to force space into my life for someone who I am making myself be with because I feel like I just have to have someone. I am so thankful for everything I have in my life. I have been so extremely blessed. And I don't ever want to push it all to the side so I feel like I am doing "what I'm supposed to".

So... I'm patiently waiting on you Prince Charming. I know you're out there, and I pray that you are taking all the time you need to find yourself, find you walk with God, and find out what you want out of life. I'll be here doing the same, and praying for you continuously. So here's to our meeting and our future happiness, when-ever God wishes for it to begin. :)